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proud

I just wanted to let you know I am very proud of you.

Love you.

Working

WAY TOO MUCH. I can't handle the 8 days straight. I do enjoy closing way more than opening though. I get to work by myself, I have a list of what I need to do at certain times to close, and I get to do it how I want to without anyone getting in my way.

Here's me with Goobtron

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Joeys a blue collar worker

Here is photos of Joeys pill pack he had to wear till 5 pm without eating any food.

Cake

I made a delicious cake.

this should help you drive a bit

stir the tuna stomp the grapes

sorry it is a bad video but it shows you how :)
love you!!!

Just crazy us Love you B!!!!!

Stoked for you

Glad to see you getting your first adult job, awwee
Good luck in the mornings you'll be fine you'll get use to it.
LOVE YOU!!!!!

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the long road making it easy

You made a good point about even though we were poor we were still happy so that is what I am trying to do now. We may have not had everything but we had fun.
Try this in a slow meditation eyes closed feel with your heart your insides
say to yourself " Life is good and all good things will come to me"
say it a few times, feel it mean it now say that you have that job, feel it , mean it.
Do this when you are feeling doubtful, when you wake up, when you go to sleep.
Don't doubt it, feel it, mean it, feel your insides calming down, feel the anxiety go away.

Just try it and stop bitching it can't hurt.
Make a board of what you want in reach and even some that arent too easy. look at it everyday, feel it, just do it stop laughing try something it's better than nothing.

love you!!

Pessimistic

Having Brad here gave me a good break, from what I'm not exactly sure, because I haven't been doing anything. It sucks because all I need right now is a job, it would fix every obstacle I'm facing right now. It's not like I'm not trying, I've been sending out resumes and applications every day. And it's not like I'm not getting jobs because of my piercings, then it'd be a legit excuse, but I'm not even getting interviews. I am extremely depressed and pessimistic right now, I just wish something would come easy for me at least this once.

It will all work out

I know it doesn't feel like it but it will all work out.
Life comes at you weird but some how we all make it through.
you have your good days and bad days.
I hope having Brad there at least gave you some time to rest your brain.

I love you xoxoxoxo

helpless days

i feel like the last two days have been completely helpless. Joey's been sick, Jake is inconsolable and I can't be there for either of them. At least Brad is coming to take my mind off of it, and I guess he's staying the whole weekend now, which Jake is pissed about and understandably so.

I just can't win!

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it was good to see you tonite. I wish you could see us, soon enough.
Brad looks hot saw the picture with his shirt off holy crap!
when is he coming out. I am glad you guys talk he is a good guy.
time will heal all wounds. I love you you are with grandma and grandpa suck up the time you have and bottle it up.
Love you with all of my heart!!

Brad

I talked to Brad on the phone for an hour tonight, i told him to message you!

I've been feeling so weird lately, like crying one second and then sleeping another. Jake got a new job and works weird hours, so I haven't talked to him in two days, pissing me off. I need to find a job asap.

Day

Not much going on here.
Just at work same ol same ol.
tomorrow I come in at 4 so I will also talk to my boss about that new position opening up.
I ran into Holly (firetruck bed) she said we could have it for $35 not sure if there is room now.
We are taking Jag and o out of swimming lessons it 's just to expensive and we can take them to Oceana pool ourselves.
Talk to you later.

Job

Today I started working in Grandpa's new office. I didn't fall asleep till 4am because I was watching It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia on that Hulu site I was telling you about. I had to wake up at 7. WHOOPS. I did wake up though, and i left on time! So far I've been here for 2 hours and I've been browsing message boards the whole time, now I get to label 500 envelopes! Grandpa also failed to mention the store is right next to a house arrest check-in center. I've never seen so many neck tattoos in my life.

empty

I know you have only been gone for almost 2 whole days now but it's very empty without you around. I even miss the groaning of you waking up again and again and again. I am sorry you aren't feeling well, but your grandmother is good at making you feel better and taking care of you. Olivia said we are still not allowed to say your name yet because it makes her sad. I always remind her your sister wouldn't like you saying that, or doing that, she thinks and then stops. Your room looks cute from the picture show me some more.

I love you :)
Mom

I miss you momma

Today is day two of my adult life, and I'm sick. Please come take care of me? I thought moving out would be awesome, but it sucks because now I have to be self sufficient. I feel like a toddler learning how to walk.

Forever and always

I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living my Baby you'll be